This isn’t a reference to that book about the unraveling of the United States economy and the beginning of the end of Imperial America.
This is a reference to the perceived out of control feeling one can get when one is mythically multi-tasking and attempting to do things that one does not really desire.
Inspired by Devin Castles during a conversation I decided to write a piece about making a plan and not sticking to it, or the feeling of unraveling we experience when things go awry. But I never really have that problem. So I can only observe and base some comments on experiencing something similar but not to any real extent. When you see that nothing has meaning the difficulty is in giving a crap about anything not losing your mind when you lose control because you always have control, are always in control, and above all, always see yourself from outside yourself so what are you to do? What are you to do to while away the days? Why? Why not?
So when all unravels, come back to the mind and take a break and realize, you are in control, real, not imagined, and you can and are doing whatever, whatever, whatever you want.
I try to see myself from both inside AND outside.
And the only time I’m not in control is when I forget that I am and then I tend to create from a default level which is never good but I still am in control no matter what and what I do/think/am/be is always my own responsibility and no one else’s no matter what ever.
Whatever.
Ah yes. Try. My favorite word to hate.
In my response to Yianni”s inquiry about how you expose the core http://markstamas.com/2007/04/03/you-are-who-you-are/#comment-226 I talked a little about the classic external view technique so common with entrepreneurs.
A really incredible but true phenomena is that when you visual yourself as if seeing yourself from without, suddenly emotion dies. The pain or pleasure ends. Gone. Stopped. Objectivity begins to form. You can of course easily stop and go back to crying, but for that moment, you really can”t experience emotion. Not that that is what you are on about of course.
See without and see within.
The most emphatic insanity post ever, ever. Have you been drinking?
No, I don’t drink. But the candle by my keyboard set the sleeve of my hemp shirt on fire and I was overcome by the fumes.
And I was visualizing myself from without, losing emotional subjectivity but gaining emphatic objectivity all the while channeling the brain-waves of a Mr. Aristotle which are hard to avoid when you reach that particular state of oblivion. Not only am I within me and without me, but apparently so is everything and everyone else.